Deer in headlights.
Well, what IS next? Are you all wondering?…Me too.
I may have been in far too much thought than my head can handle these past few weeks since I’ve been back home. I’ve also gotten used to NOT kissing people on the cheek when I see them, and used to the fact that it’s easier for me to participate in conversation now that everyone speaks english. I no longer have any excuses. And “shy” isn’t gonna cut it anymore. I’m too old for that business. Being with the family and James has been lovely. It’s weird that it doesn’t even feel like I left sometimes, but my Mom is sure to remind me that I was gone for quite a long time.
I’ve finally finished up last minute things for school. Oh, then I graduated yesterday. You know what it felt like? It didn’t feel much like anything in the moment. I didn’t even actually get my diploma. They’ll send it in the mail in a couple months. And then, maybe it will feel something like relief. I got to wear a funny outfit, and it was cool hearing my name get announced over the microphone, while shaking the president’s hand. Sure – It wasn’t bad. They also gave me some gold cords for my neck to remind me that trying to get good grades is good for something – gold cords. I’m just kidding. I know it was a good accomplishment, and that I should be proud, but I can’t help but think about what the next thing is…whatever it is. A new challenge. A new mountain to climb…Maybe I should enjoy a little rest first after the roughest 2 years ever (not just school-wise)? Alright…a little rest for a little while anyways, but then I gotta find a job. Or make a job. Or realize that I can’t get a job because no one is hiring and just go back to school.
Thoughts:
1. Part time job while tryin to start my own little fair trade business
2. Full time job in a non-profit arena
3. Full time job in whatever I can find that sounds enjoyable
4. Part time or full time easy (or hard?) job while getting a Masters in Business or International Development
5. Become a muralist and do admin work for my dad’s business
6. ???
I could use some wisdom, advice, questions and comments…
Let’s get coffee.